Ugh my Stomach Hurts!

Ugh! My stomach hurts!  Damn sweet tea!
  Am I a "poser"?  I had been thinkin about that lately...What got me thinkin was a picture slideshow on youtube of scene/emo girls and their hairstyles and there happened to be a couple vids in the recommendation area of black girls and guys that did the scene and emo thing too...By lookin at the comments and the big ass disclaimer on the vid reassuring people that these kids are not posers in any way....(i mean the white kids dont put disclaimers on their vids so y should the others do it??)...i guess people still believe that if a one group of people do something then its authentic and all theirs but when some kids who arent essentially from that group do it, they are automatically a poser and just goin with a trend...
  I remember goin into highschool i had started my gauges (im sure most people know what that is by now)...I remember a girl coming up to me(i guess u could call her style kinda edgy emo punk-ish...IDK) and asking me, "Do you know what kind of music is associated w/ those? Why do you do that??!"  In my head i was thinkin, "Bitch! WTF?! Do you?!"  I mean im sure she hung out with the people and listened to the music that were "associated" with my ears (lol my ears..sounds funny) so i knew what she was "blabbing" about but i was like Damn... really? are you asking me this right now?.............Tho of course me being the nice person that i am, i thought rationally and just said, "Yea...Its because its something i want to do..", and just left it at that and brushed it off...btw that class was full of smartasses..
  IDK y i didnt put her in her place right at that moment...I guess i didnt wanna seem like the class bitch just starting highschool and all...But anyways for the record I have gauges cause my mom motivated me...She has them so i got them..Its African Heritage for the dummies that dont kno..I'm not straight from Africa but I do recognize my roots..........
..................Anyways........Being a poser..........So what if somebody found something they like that is not thought of to be native to them....If its something thats constructive and helps you meet new people and friends then its cool...Of course im not condoning of doing drugs and other shit coz everybody else is doin it....empahsis on constructive now lol...it shouldn't be a problem..
  Another memory i had was when i was with my ex and his family one day..It was when his younger sister asked him for his skateboard so she could go out with some new friends she made....Naturally im like ok cool she wants to skate thats awesome ya kno!...but her brother was like, "Hell No! Stop acting like a poser! U cant skate!"...i was just thinkin damn! Whats wrong with her wanting to skate, shes tryin to make new friends let her do her thing, she may actually like it......i kno shes fully aware that she cant skate..the only way she gonna learn is if she gets on one..in the end he still didn't let her borrow the skateboard
  Kinda glad i broke up with him tho...He took the wrong things too seriously....

  What really is a "poser"? If people stuck to just only one thing in life and never went through phases and trends, life would be pretty damn boring...Human beings thrive on new experiences and things...those are the things that keep life interesting...CHANGE....

Remember the movie Inception?  The whole issue in the movie was that it was hard to come up with your own unique dream..its always someone or something that influence or motivate a dream...The same goes for real life...There are so many other people that have thought the same idea or been influenced by someone else or something...Its very rare these days  that you find someone or something that is completely new that nobody has seen before...The only difference between things like that is  that some people have better skills to execute their thoughts and to give it different levels and put it into action..so essentially we all do and think differently to accommodate our lifestyle but a great number of us are also the same...

i hope this is understood from my POV pretty well

Lol OMG! How could i have missed that there was a theme of animal print in the clothing for the Hello mv for SHINee!

I wish i could write my blogs with my mind....just incredibly too lazy to even type right now...

Just Checkin to c if my phone blogging is Workin

Fun on the Run

Fun on the Run by Seneca Nettles featuring high topped shoes

The perfect schoo outfit

The perfect schoo outfit by Seneca Nettles featuring long sleeve tops

Well....So....Yea....

Well i've decided i'm gonna teach myself how to do Hime Nail Art...Since i basically fail at doin Gel and Acrylic nails, i decided on just designing them..I thought it would be a lot easier on me since ur basically dealing with deco and not just painting designs on it....I know i'm fully capable of this since i'm pretty creative with artsy and cutesy stuff...I think after teachin myself this i can build up to making my own paint designs on nails...I always feel sad when i think of doin awesome stuff coz it would be hard to sport the things that i think about...Like for instance Hime nails wouldn't for me as far as wearing them myself becoz i love doin my hair so all those little deco pieces would just get stuck my hair (lol other peoples hair too-I'm cosmetologist remember)...Idk how those girls do it....Gotta have some super industrial strength glue for that stuff lol!

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Ugh y does my mom like to watch this stuff?…

November 7, 2010

8:38pm

Ugh I hate watchin crime shows…so depressing…Its hard to believe people do things like that to other people…just innocent defenseless people...My mom is watchin this show about the Green River Killer and other serial killers…IDk if I was hearing right but this guy  killed like 48 or more women….That is so extreme…Its like he had no feelings or anything..He just thought it was right and something he liked to do..Sometimes he even did it before he went to work in the morning…How could someone be so cold hearted…How could u not feel anything while a person is screaming and fighting and begging for their life…Shit I freak out even when I kill a bug…Its like my worst nightmare…I remember watchin The Lovely Bones and thinking so many stories probably end like the character in the movie…Girl comes up missing and is never found and the killer just keeps on killing…There so soo many people who r missing and still missing…Whenever I leave from Wal-Mart its depressing to see all those pictures of little kids and women…its just crazy…

The Boys r tryin to rule the world

The Boys r tryin to rule the world

November 2, 2010  7:00pm

Just saw some new vids…I kno there r some more but I didn’t have time since I was at the library…it’s the only place that I can get the net right now..It sucks ugh..Really need internet right now…but anyways I saw It Hurts by 2NE1 and Ayy Girl by JYJ….

So the new 2NE1 vid was nice…it was out of the usual for them I think…almost Tim Burton style and I love stuff like that…I was really digging the nail designs in this vid..CL’s nails were scary but very coool (@0:18)…they were black and skinny and they curl a little…Then Sandara had to different nails..one of them weren’t that special but I would like it on my own nails (@0:30 or 0:31)..They were just white so I think I should get some of that color nail polish…then the other ones were black tips and white bed design (@1:33 That’s a crazy bracelet she’s wearing there too!).. everybody elses nails were polished silver or black…guess I need to get some of that silver too..

Now the makeup was very very good as usual for the girls of 2NE1…the eye makeup was kinda the same concept for everybody but different styles..I guess the winged concept…CL’s makeup at the beginning of the vid was very nice especially how her lips were contoured with the bright red glossy lipstick..Don’t really have a favorite as far as makeup for this vid but I do have on for the Hair actually two…I liked Minzy’s look (@0:43) and CL’s two looks (@0:16 and @2:23)..Minzy’s was kinda whimsical cute while CL’s was more rounded updos..The color choice made for Park Bom was kinda odd and takes some time to get used to..The crazy kinky extensions used in Sandara’s hair was kinda cool tho..i like the color choice also..it fits her skin tone…

As I watched the video 50 times over lol I fell in love with CL’s over the knee boots…they r really hot…really need to get me a pair this season…like I said earlier the bracelet Sandara was wearing was crazy cool…it was like…wow I can’t even explain lol..oh I kno now, I guess industrial like..yea lol…just plain cool..can’t see just anybody else wearing it tho…Minzy was wearing those shiny leggings again from the Can’t Nobody MV…The circle lenses that CL is wearing are cool…I don’t think I have ever seen her wear them before or I guess never noticed…I wanna try a pair of those..hope I won’t look weird lol…

Ok NOW on to The Rising Gods of Asia…Well at least 3 of them..JYJ!!...I really like this song..I was glad there wasn’t any overdone guyliner in this vid if any at all…LOL it was hard to pay attention to the clothes in this vid…I love these guys and they can really sing….but anyways..To the clothes and stuff…the little tank thingy Xiah was wearing wasn’t really that cool…I guess sorta all the clothing choices for the guys could be better or it could b the total opposite, they could bring something totally new to the American market as far as fashion sense, but speakin from an American persons pov that has never heard of DBSK or any of the things they have done and worn in the past, they prolly would b wondering WTF r they wearing lol…BTW the choreography for this vid was nice..it really flowed and I really enjoyed it…

Umm I didn’t like Micky’s hair too much in this vid…when its pulled back its fine but down its kinda weird..I’ve seen his hair long before but the part down the middle wasn’t it lol…I guess I’m just used to the bang lol…The other guys hair was fine and fit them well…I would love to kno the diagram for Xiah and Jaejoong’s hair so I can do it on some one else…I really need some more haircutting techniques…

I guess that’s the end of this one for now…I promise I will learn how to write these entries better so people can understand..I just write these like streams of consciousness..so yea….lol signin out

Nobody's Ever Left Here Without Doin It...

Well recently i haven't really been lookin for a job..No motivation really but my mom brought back up the funeral home thing...Mom as thinking i should try the mortuary cosmetology business..Its good money and it always has costumers..unfortunately for them ㅡ__ㅡ....Well nothin else is goin on i guess i should...one of my friends actually wanted me to do it with her but i guess she doesn't want to now...I think it will be and interestin experience for me...I've only seen a dead body once so this is all very new to me...i think i will talk with someone who already does this to see how they like it and if its the job for me...if i do end up doin this then it will mos def be a recurring topic on here..

jeez!

Man I am sooooo behind in kpop right now...if it wasnt for the twitter alerts then i would totally be just...ugh! i will come back with some more blogs later....I need to do one on hair, and fashion so I'LL BE BACK!

Oh Sweet Day?! LOL!!!

Oct 14, 2010  1:23am

Listening to Tok Tok Tok-4men

I’m so happy my mom is back home..It feels like the house is complete now..it also feels a lil surreal tho..i didn’t know I was alone for so long…wow 25 days is a long time but with the help of my friends and stayin at their places help pass the time…I just wanna thank everybody for all the support and love that I was given these pass weeks…

I think I even listened to music every single day for about 3hrs straight…Its my escape…I guess MYOOJIK really IS MY LIFE LOL!...I’ve actually even got current with the music in Korea now…lol saw some new vids and heard some new music…

I’m really lovin the new Ga-In MV called Irreversible….I love tracks with the tango Argentinean like beats…I’m in love with beats like that..so seductive lol…makes me wanna dance..but anyways I was eyeing the clothes she was wearing in the vid and they were nice..esp that knit or crochet dress she was wearing that u can kinda see thru…Not to mention the makeup was BOOM! (lol Junsu)..very sexy and that nice fur vest was hot too…she’s been rockin those for a while tho lol

Then another hot vid and song is the new 2pm hit I’ll Be Back..Makes me wanna learn the dance moves to that..its kinda funny coz everybody thinks is the running man but it kinda a house dance move (or so ive seen lol)..The clothing choices were wisely made I think…I’ve been reading comments on youtube and they think of the clothing choices as really bad and the same for the eye makeup lol but that’s another story….sooo anyways if anyone knows what line the guys r wearing in the vid it would be GREATLY appreciated…GREATLY (emphasis lol)…I guess the reason I like the clothes is because its seems very futuristic like the stuff they wear in Asheville J…the design of the clothes fit the bodies of the boys very good I think esp Chansung (oh im in love with how long his torso is lol weird I kno) and Nichkhun (ahh so sexy lol)but yeah perfect threads for the body…oh also I never really noticed just how built Taec was…He seems like a big guy..lol I wanna stand next to him to see…

The last vid I remember is Shinees new one called Hello…I’ve always been impressed with the choices the stylist prepare for them..seems very fitting for their bodies since they aren’t very big guys…I’m lovin the pants that Onew wears…lol I would wear those..they r all black lace up skinnys…I also like Onews other ensemble with the tans and browns..looks very 80’s vice style but still boyishly cute lol…I’m def lovin Minho’s choices..they r a lil more less femme lol but still fits with the rest of the group..I can tell they r trying to project a more manly image on him than the rest…I just love how quirky the whole groups style is…I approve and so do other Fan Girlys lol

I guess I should do more of these post and def add some girl groups in the mix lol…but idky I have a passion for guy clothes..i guess it adds to the eye candy for me since I love guys who can dress well and look good in the clothes too(hope that makes since).. BOOM!!! (lol)

MYOOJIK Is My Life: Before i was rudely interrupted...

MYOOJIK Is My Life: Before i was rudely interrupted...: "Aww i saw some cute stuff today...I really like the BeBe store..they have really pretty stuff..i always knew that but i guess i want to spea..."

Before i was rudely interrupted...

Aww i saw some cute stuff today...I really like the BeBe store..they have really pretty stuff..i always knew that but i guess i want to speak on it now..I like the style..I think its more my style there..If only it was in my price range ㅠ.ㅠ...

I guess most people that take one look at me but don't know me think i wouldn't wear things like that but i really like stuff like this lol...i dress like a hippie a lot of the time but in the summer time there really isnt really a way to escape the heat but to dress like one lol...but anyways i think bebe is a cool store for me...really sexy edgy stuff..i like :)

Another store i went to today was Banana Republic...i think?...lol..yea...The stuff for the women weren't really my style but if i had a bf i def would dress him in the men's collection..its very nice and sophisticated...i like the city chic look..i guess thats what it is lol idk..not good with terminology or spelling for that matter lol..idk y i like their mens collection the mannaquins were well dressed lol..Made me fantasize about my ideal man..
Actually Express has a good selection/collection for their mens line also but i didn't get to go there today coz of some other business i had to tend to....

I also enjoyed going to the MAC and Benefit areas of wherever store that was lol id remember now...I like makeup..i wish i knew more about it..was supposed to learn about this in cosmetology school but i didn't like the products we were working with so i focused more on the eyes..im a shadow person..I haven't really dealt with anything else...never really thought i needed to since my skin isn't that bad to use so much make up plus if it was i wasn't gonna decieve people by wearin makeup..I used to think it was just for special occasions but nowadays im thinkin more about it..maybe if i only wear a little bit...idk...MAC has this moisturetint stuff...Hmm maybe i can use that..i just wanna make my imperfections a little less visible..i don't care if it is visible just less visible lol..I need to talk to a professional lol..i wanna learn how to apply makeup again too..from a real make up artist lol..I think it would benefit me more...i wanna try new things too...new colors and everything..

Making Tutorials for Styling Locs

Oct 8 2010 3:54pm

Listening to Super Junior-BONAMANA (MIINAH)

Maybe I should start making tutorials on styling locs..I have noticed that I don’t wear my hair like some do that have them….Maybe I can get a friend to help too…This should be fun lol…

lol so glad im done with those glasses

LISTEN GIRL JOAHAE, BABY GIRL SARANGHAE!!

안녕하세요!

2010년 10원 8일

2:38pm

신이가 입니다! Lol let me speak in English. I haven’t quite learned how to type in Korean…If I had a writing board then I could totally do it otherwise…Speakin of Korea I really wanna go there…I think its so kool…I wanna go and stay for a month or longer if time permits lol…I have a handful of friends from there so I don’t think there would be a prob to stay….its getting there that’s the hard part..It costs so much money to go…Just about $2000 and more..I gotta save up a lot every month…and then save extra to buy clothes and souvenirs…Its gonna be hard but when I get done with the “situation” I and get a job and start saving for this future trip I want so badly…

Hmmmm…Why Korea???  Lol I don’t really kno myself…I guess Japan was too crazy for me lol…I have family there so I prolly should go but idk the first place to look…I guess if Big Bro is reading this he should get the address so I can visit there too..but then I will have to learn Japanese again coz I kinda forgot a lot of things and unlike Korean I cant read anything in Japanese..(I don’t like to talk to grandma sometimes ugh..I don’t like the words she uses-randomness)…Actually I have never really been able to…I can read more things in Chinese than in Japanese..I always found it complicated so I commend people who aren’t Japanese who can read it and understand…Im just a talker not a reader when it comes to that lang…But anyways back to Korea…The entertainment business is the best part…They come out with some of the best groups and entertainers that are known and loved by girls (guys too lol) all around the world…And I already explained about the clothes in my other post…I got hooked what can I say lol…Its like a New York and LA combined but in Asia…with a lot of Asians lol

I want to go to that big ass Mall there that Shinee went to in the Hello Baby episode…Although I would be majorly overwhelmed I would be so happy (in heaven more like it lol)…Plus I have never really been in such a big city not even here in the US…

start it at 3:48

I’m hoping I see someone famous too lol…Seoul is like the Koreas Hollywood/LA…Seeing a Star King Episode live would be nice too lol…Lol I was just thinking…Theres this guy in Japan he’s black too… IDK y he’s there..prolly a teacher or  something…But anyways he goes around asking asian guys in  Japan if they like Black women…Lol Maybe is should do that in Korea..Just ask random Korean guys if they like black women…I do plan on videoing my trip so maybe I should..but I don’t want to scare anybody lol esp with the stuff in my face hahahaha…

this guy is just...lol

Another thing I wanna do is eat a whole bunch of Korean food!!!!  I love Korean food..its my favorite J (DIGITAL BOUNCE! DIGITAL SOUND! DIGITAL X! WELCOME TO DIGITAL WORLD! lol I like that song)..

Oh yea I wanna get hard lens there too but idk if I can cause im American..One of my Korean friends have contact lenses but they r hard ones so they last for about 2yrs…I think that is so cool..I never really considered contacts until I saw hers..i always thought that I would have to keep buying them cause they don’t last long….

I just wanna walk around and have fun with my friends!! That’s all lol..I wanna take video and tons of pics when I go..I hope I get better cameras when that time comes…

G-2-the-Ma LOL

Not listening to music due to the fact a certain someone is sleeping

Oct 06, 2010 8:25pm

Well my Grandma came down earlier today to help me make some money so my mom can get out…We r doin a Yard Sale to make the money..so yeah we r doin that…

All I can say is 2 words…Busy-Body!!!

That woman has too much energy for her age…The minute she came up she wanted to start stuff lol…

When we were getting stuff for the yard sale she was trying to pick up stuff that was way too big.. She needs to slow down

Lol shes a sweet lady but she can b annoying at times but that’s ok im used to it…but I hope my mom doesn’t get like her lol…at least until I move out (^_~)(\/)

Making Clothes and my love for fashion

Listening to SNSD-Genie

Oct 05, 2010 10:23pm

I won’t say I have a knack for fashion but I have always had my own style ever since I was little…lol my teachers noticed when I was little that I liked wearing my knee hi socks whenever I wore uniform and even when I wore those sparkly ass tights that they wear now..

I used to love to dress up in my moms stuff (what kid didnt) only difference is that my mom had really sexy stuff in her closet…like one time I remembered those knee hi leopard print hi heel boots (I loved putting those on)..My mom always said that if I wore her shoes that I was destined to have big feet..Now I wear my moms shoes lol size 9 1/2…

Since I loved clothes I always thought I would be a designer of some sort..I never thought I would be a cosmetologist..It was just something I subconsciously liked but never really got into..when I was in middle school I had this little mini design book of drawings I did (btw I still have this)…everybody even my teachers thought I would be a clothes designer..Only problem was I couldn’t sew worth crap..I didn’t really try to get lessons but my mom still got me that $400 sewing machine..She had a lot of faith in me back then..

In middle and elementary I dressed how I wanted without much influence (at least I don’t think)..Then in High School (9^th grade) I got influenced by Japanese culture so I started to dress a lil crazy at times lol…since I wasn’t much of the talker back then I used the way I dressed as a way to express myself….one outfit I remember was a lavender color corduroy overall short dress and some black and white striped tights with some black and white converse hi tops..i loved that outfit..i thought it was so cute back then but I could only imagine what everybody else thought of me..

Around tenth grade I toned it down a bit and I dressed kinda normal, but around 11^th and 12^th I was just starting to really get into Korean culture

(credit to Japanesestreets.com...Really Awesome ass site everybody should go)

（Omg this is so freakin awesome I can do romaji input to type in Japanese! I didn’t kno I could do that…Awesome!...very random but fuckin awesome!）

Anyways before I disrupted myself lol….In 11^th and 12^th I got into Korean culture…I had these sites that I would consult (same ones I have now lol but they r still very relevant)  on the daily bases so I could dress like the girls on the pics…I may not have been able to buy the clothes they had on but I was still able to translate it into the clothes I already had and cheaper clothes I bought along the way…

All throughout school I loved vintage clothing and I still do.. I actually have a lil collection of my own..I can’t wear any of the dresses because #1: I don’t have a corset to fit in them lol #2: the sizes r totally different from now…women r a lot bigger than they used to be I guess lol…but back to Korean stuff…Im in love with the Korean fashion scene..some people don’t think there is a difference but I still like it…Its like they catch on to things a lot quicker than hear (prolly a lot of places not just Korea lol)..I think people here think if it looks good on the hanger then it will look good on  them but u gotta try on clothes before u just buy them…I feel like looking at the different fashions has really opened up my eyes to it because there r a lot of things I didn’t think go together…I feel like I have a lot more options now lol instead of doing what everybody else is doing….Now when I go to the mall it’s a lil overwhelming..My fav store right now is Forever 21 and I so glad we r getting one in SC now…If u want affordable trendy clothing that’s the place to go…Now all we need is an Urban Outfitters..Its funny how they r based here and SC but we don’t have a store for them here..the closest one is in NC..One in Charlotte and Asheville (My new fav place lol)…Lol I haven’t bought anything from those places but I like lookin around for new ideas

As far as making clothes..that hasn’t really worked out lol … idk when I will be ready..i always think im gonna fail horribly at it so I don’t like to try…one day I will tho I just kno it…just not now hehe..all I kno is that if I don’t start makin the money I want from doin hair then im def gonna try my hardest to make clothes coz I hate not being able to afford clothes for long periods of time..

The End is Near

Listening to 꿈-K.Will

Ugh its already tryin to get cold...Almost froze in my shorts today
SN:  lol why did it take like 10min for me to figure out my password on Twitter shame shame shame

I guess im gonna need a new wardrobe for the cold times (lol winter)...

there are some sites i look to for advice on my clothing choices..they r mostly korean or just overseas (mostly korean-i can navigate myself around the sites better)

the cool thing to wear this year is still shorts with the tights and stockings (who says that anymore??)..so i guess i need to buy some funky ones now

i guess i will just put some pics of what i want here:

(lol i guess i won't dont wanna get sued for using licensed pics that would suck)

well yea i wanna go to  Asheville to get some clothes...Actually i wanna move there but i dont wanna do it unless i get a job there first...in a salon of course..or i wanna make my own bcuz when i got there, there happened to be no presence of black people (well almost none-i saw a total of 1 1/2 black people lol) Maybe i can get some to come when i open a salon that caters to them also...

But back to fashion................I intend to go back to my old ways of when i started highschool and was crazy about Japan....I wanna get back into cute mode.... And U KNO WHAT THAT MEANS?!..I need some cuter hairstyles for my own hair but i will get on that topic later...Lately i have gotten into girly mode this year...Im really lovin bein a girl now..its just that there are a lot of times that i haven't felt like a girl..I just felt there..But things are changin for the better...

I lookin towards 2NE1's style its kinda morbid at times i think tho lol...but their stylist team makes most of there accessories which r kinda girly and edgy at the same time

Like the lego belt dara is wearing and the little junk food rings that cl wears



Now on to hair... As some of my friends already kno..I have locs..I think about cutting them sometimes bcuz im running out of things to do with them..I like to get them curled a lot but the process is so long..Its takes about 2 hours to twist and set them then another 2hr to dry under dryer on full blast and the longer they get the longer it takes to dry...

pics of locs:

Maybe some people can give me some insight on some new or other styles i can do with my hair...WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED:)

Now on to nails...I have been thinkin about getting the fake nails for a while...Its just that mine look so horrible..and like i said i wanna look girly so i want girly nails...

Actually they offered this at the cosmetology school i graduated from but i was never successful at doing it..I dont mind designing them but don't ask me to do the acrylic or gel sculptures coz that aint gon happen unless u want a jacked up set lol

Pics of Nails and designs:

I guess in other words my boyish ways r over lol...the more girly me needs to come out

and btw if u read all of this...good for u :)

  Listening to 8eight-Availability Period

Went to Tsunami today with my bestest friend lol
was pretty g-...ok im lying...I didn't really like it but yea the cheese thingys were good..I should make thos one day..
we ran some errands today...I made this small ass ad in the paper and it cost me almost $30...I hope this yard sale makes the rest of the money i need..(sorry for the "..."-its just the way i think thats all)I;m kinda hungry right now but idk what to eat plus im at Leigh's place..
I was watching eps of we got married..What is WGM u ask?...Its only the most awesomest korean reality show ever!..Its basically two Korean Idols paired up to be married (not a real marriage), idk how long they stay together (prolly a year) but they have to act like they r a coulple and married...its very cute and i suggest u to watch...anyways...this season is with Nichkhun (from 2pm) and Victoria (from f(x))<----looks like an equation lol)) I think they r so cute together plus they are both tall...but yea idk y im even talkin about this

Ugh IDK

I really dont kno what to write about im just writing to write i guess...I saw an interesting movie today called Battle Royale..Its a Japanese movie about teens from the same class being put on a desert island and they have to survive but there can only be one winner so they have to kill each other til then...It kinda made me think if i was in a situation like that what would i do...What would be the options i would give myself?: To live and kill everyone u can..To die and kill everyone u can..To hide and still die..Or make it go faster and  just kill yourself....Honestly i didnt want to think about it too much...But Anyways...
I'll write more later
Tired as FFFFFFUUUUUUUU- lol (^_~)

What’s been goin on…?

Listening to Quasimodo sung by Shinee

(Disclaimer:  entry could contain disconnections, misspellings, abrupt endings, and can even be off topic  -read at your own risk-)

Well I don’t kno where to start really….On my b-day (of all days), my mom got into a fight with some people at the flea mkt. This fight was more like a two day thing, but anyways…so one thing led to another and my mother ended up in jail (detention center really). So now I’m trying to take care of everything my mother did prior to all this.. Its quite hard really, but the hardest part is hearing my mom crying over the phone. It doesn’t help that I wanna kick everyone of her friends’ asses for not helping the way they should either…but I guess times are hard..right?.....I’m trying to make the bond money but it feels impossible and now that family is involved, I’m being pulled in different directions because they think they have other ways of handling the situation. All I kno is that I just want to get her outta there…..

On a positive note, I got my test results for my cosmetology tests and I passed both of them (without having to study much at all, I’m a slacker when it comes to that).  So now I just need to find a job in a salon, which is the hard part because I haven’t really figured my style out yet. Plus with all this stuff happening recently I haven’t really had the motivation to even think about hair. Until recently have I started to look at anything regarding fashion/hair/art type stuff.  Just the other day I was in the bookstore lookin thru magazines. I’m really likin architectural design and modern furniture magazines lately. The stuff in those mags really impressed me. Maybe one day I can do some interior design (most likely designing my own salon and home)

(lol just got lost watching Shinee perform Lucifer-it has that affect on u J)

Well, Well, Well

Well I finally made one of these.  I used to have a journal but i need something else so i decided to do this. Hope it goes well...